"I love all his looks, and all his actions, and him entirely and altogether. There now!"

It has been a quiet day and one full of back pains from slouching over and slaving over my work. I feel as though I haven't left the house in quite a long time (being about a day) and I feel like how I imagine zoo animals to feel except my mother feeds me less and my life is even more boring, as of recent. My constant feelings of anxiety and panic attacks have me under house arrest and I haven't been at school very much apart from when I felt necessary or I felt well enough that I wasnt going to have a heart attack in the class or something like that. It's got me feeling very very very very glum and down about myself and i tweet about it a lot and talk about it all the time as though it were nothing but it's completely taken over my life so much so that my life no consists of working from home and Netflix.

Since the new year I've been taken to writing a lot of lists in my new Listography book George got me for christmas I am absolutely 100% obsessed with it I write everything down in it and take it everywhere, it's my LIFE. I wrote down all my resolutions, if you can call them resolutions, in that thing as well. One of which being to watch the entire series of Peep Show and The Office from beginning to end and another was to watch a movie a day.

I spent last night and this morning watching Up and I spent most of the time asking questions to myself. Like, why did Ellie have to die? What's with Carls nose looking rather like a....testicle? Is Russell Asian or, what ethnicity is he? Why the pilot guy found it necessary to recruit an army of dogs when he livedi n the South-American wilderness and could have found something ten times as big and scary to warden off people with.
Robyn recommend I watch Teeth tonight and the long and short of that film is that some gal finds it incredibly entertaining to eat boys dicks off with her vagina.

My movie list is evergrowing so it's pretty hard to can it and let everyone see but it's pretty long and i'll try keep up posting or whatever but maybe not.

I am having to sell my shiny shoes but today i wore this outfit with those shoes these weren't taken today but it was the same outfit enjoy i am not pretentious or vain i like clothes and taking pictures of myself????

That is me sulking about doing work, have a nice night and have a nice Tuesday

Rachel xox