French Film + no self-esteem

I don't know what an identity crisis is and I don't know if this is it.

For the past few day's I've been feeling really detached from everything and I've been experiencing really low self-esteem. I was ill with tonsillitis and, really, the main battle is with my hair.

Such a "first world problem" but to a lot of people their hair is a lot to them and it usually is the decider on whether I feel good or not.

I think I definitely need a haircut, I haven't had a proper haircut in over a year (besides the little trims I give it myself every now and again) and I think it's really taking it's toll. It's so thick and wiry, fluffy and it goes so knotty in the underneath part. My fringe is STILL growing out and so is my undercut, I'd just give a lot for hair I could feel confident about doing nothing with. 

Secondly, work. It's only 5 weeks till the break-up for the Christmas holidays so the work is piling up more so than it has previously been. I have two (soon to be three) essays to be handed in this month, it isn't that I don't have time it;s just that I'm struggling to come to terms with how I do them. I'll get used to the working style, which isn't really what I have a problem with. Is it a "thing" to suffer really low self-esteem when workload piles up? I'm hoping.

In order to procrastinate to the best of my abilities, I've spent the entire past few days watching a couple French films and creating playlists. Or one well grafted playlist.

I know "The Dreamers" isn't so much an entirely French film but the English/French/Italian collaboration means I'm counting it. Blue is the Warmest Colour is the other I watched. Although it is 3 hours long I didn't feel like it dragged on so much but what I lacked in boredom I made up for twice as much in the fact that most of the characters got right on my nerves. 

I know I am probably taking away from the entirety of the film but Adele, the main character, is an extremely irritating character. We start the film as Adele is around 17 years old and follow her life through to her being a young woman, y'know as she figures a lot of stuff out: her sexuality, friends. The film mainly revolves around her relationship with Emma (Lea Seydoux). 

The little character quirks that Adele possesses really got on my nerves, such as the lip smacking and the CONSTANT PLAYING AROUND WITH HER HAIR. It made me feel really uncomfortable seeing her playing with it all the time and throwing it up. There should have been an on-screen counter for every time she took down and retied her hair. 

I feel bad for letting these things annoy me so much and (not really, maybe) ruin the film for me, it was very distracting. 

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The rest of my weekend is probably going to consist of trying to plan at least some of my essays and finish The Time Machine because I have a lot of reading to finish which I should have done a while ago. 

xxrachelhelen